The Worst Dancer in the Party
I was browsing through the old college party pictures.
Apparently one of the few things that can cheer me up anytime. The thing I like most about parties is
that you can actually pretend to be happy and no one notices. People like to
think partying is awesome , but I never get accustomed to the word
"Partying". Dancing, flaunting fake expressions, showing off,
boozing, pretending that life is happening. Perhaps I got it all wrong, perhaps I
envy them, or perhaps I am right, as I like to think. Everybody has a reason
for going to parties.Some like to dance, some prefer boozing and some people just like the feel of it. I, I personally go
to parties to watch people. It would not be inappropriate to say that am
Boring, but I like to do things which makes me myself.
I'm all about observing
and analyzing, which often makes me wonder, what am I doing and where will
it lead me. I hate being judged, hence I hate being watched or being listened
for a long time. It really matters to what others think about me, perhaps
this is the reason why I have never exhibited my real-self in front of
anyone. I observe myself too much. Like, I hold the mic like am holding an
ice-cream cone. My body posture always suggests that am shrugging, I pose
weirdly and I look like a mouse sometimes. I’m weird and I know it and
that’s because when in public, I try to be too careful all the time and eventually
end up acting stupid.
But there is always at least one person in the party
who doesn't care what others think about him. He dances for himself
and don't give a damn, what else is going on. Never in my
life, I went to a party and failed to spot that individual and I must
admit I envy that person every single time. Some part of me wants to be like
him, at least for once.
For once, I want to feel like him, that am free willed and I can do whatever I want, that I've got nothing to worry and no pressure. For once I want to be relaxed and feel that nobody is watching me. For once I want to live like I've nothing to gain and nothing to lose. For once I want to dance like a maniac. For once I want to be that worst dancer in the party.
