Monday, December 26, 2011

My Bucket List

Things I'd like to give a shot , before I die-

  1. Pretend to be someone else for at least a month
  2. Upload a stupid Video on YouTube and get 10 Million hits
  3. Take mom for a foreign tour before I get married
  4. Write a Bestseller
  5. Get an autograph of Sachin Tendulkar & Nelson Mandela
  6. Win a lottery
  7. Spend a week in some remote village without technology and gadgets
  8. Bull Riding
  9. Eat in a fine hotel &; run away without paying
  10. To be an IPS winner. FYI its Indian Poker Series. 
  11. Give a spectacular Salsa performance
  12. Watch a Killer horror film in 3D
  13. Rob a bank , and don't get caught 
  14. Learn a Kick ass language that people find amusing
  15. Get a Bald look to see if it suits me
  16. Learn a Kick-ass foreign language
  17. Wander in Paris alone, in search of something that I always thought I'd find there, and eventually find.
  18. Write an actual Screenplay for a commercial movie before 2015
  19. Taste the Oldest Wine
  20. Own a Vintage Gun
  21. Cause the biggest traffic in the history of India

CONT....

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Random Thoughts Part III



                An Old Dress in her closet

      The door opened and once again her colorful closet came in light. She looked at it with  more self admiration , as now she has a variety of clothes to choose from. Perhaps, more than one for every given occasion. One might say, her wardrobe clearly reflects her personality. Colorful, moody and unpredictable. She has all unique colors in her wardrobe hot pink, tangerine , honeydew , teal and even colors she might never wear. Among this chaos of colors, there lies a black dress in the corner of the closet. It was her favorite, once. She has it for quite a long time now. In her golden days, she wore it like her skin. The first dress she ever bought for herself , a dress that reflected her personality in all moods like they were made for each other. The dress that was made to make her feel like HERSELF. She had some most rejoicing memories in it. How time flies as the saying goes, those days are gone now. Ever since someone pointed out that the dress is old enough to retire and that she doesn't look any good  in it, she stopped wearing it ,she moved on. However, she couldn't throw it away. It's hard to keep every dress forever , but she kept this one. After all it was her favorite dress. It's been ages & she hasn't even laid her eyes on it. Perhaps someday she'll notice it, she might even wear it to see if it still fits or just to relive her past for a few moments. She shall wear it or not, one thing is for certain: Her golden time is gone, she might keep the dress forever, but she cannot have that time back.


                           
                  That old dress kind of reminds me of an old relationship. It's funny, how time passes by and we don't even realize that we have forgotten so many relationships. Relationships that mattered once, relationships that served their time. Its indeed very hard to keep every relation forever , but some relations have a long duration, they stay almost forever. We may not be together now, but we still have a place in each other's heart. We had our time and we'll cherish it forever. Our busy lives may not give us enough time to think about each other , but we know that someday when in leisure we'll open the closet , the other one will be waiting there. (At least that's what I believe and hope) Many times I wonder, why the relationship ended ? Did someone pointed to her that we don't look good together? or even worse, was I even her favorite dress? 

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Random Thoughts Part II

                              A moment forever 


Date-20th July-11 
Time- 5.15 PM
Place- Shimla


              As I stare outside the window, I see fog covering every inch in the vicinity. A train of thoughts stirs my mind. I couldn't help but express my state in ink as I sit alone in my room practically a thousand miles away from my home. Its hard to recall when was the last time I Shared such a peaceful time with myself. Miles away from home, alone with a cup of coffee and above all , happy.
                    I shift my gaze to look for something inside the room. Aah!! a half empty bottle of Blender's Pride Whiskey. Last night it was full. Empty alcohol bottles are always full of stories and the one in my front is no exception. One of my room partners spent the last day in despair, perhaps he was missing someone. Though he preferred to share his mood with the whiskey and not me, I didn't mind as we are not two hands yet.But I hope he would eventually tell me.




               My deepest fears are surfacing again as loneliness favors them more often. I am all by myself and even though high fever doesn't favor me with the pen, I still hope to get things out of me while am at it. At times like this when I feel bond-less and free, I literary forget everything except the moment I'm in. It helps me know myself better and keep me updated about myself.
               I had never thought I'd be here alone at any point but it is happening and once again I feel elated with the surprise life gave me. Certainly, uncertainty is the best part of life  I recall how randomly I visited a site which gave me an opportunity to be in Shimla for 10 days with a learning experience.
                  I feel weird as I keep looking at the ceiling again and again but there are no fans in Shimla. The drop dead silence around me is somehow freaking me out as everything in this room but my soul is at unease.But this uneasiness has a touch of comfort as I feel freaked out, alone, strong, weird and HAPPY, all at the same time.This moment might not mean anything to someone who goes through it while I show it off, but it gives me a lifetime memory. A memory when I knew I'm exactly where I want to be.


Thursday, December 1, 2011

Random Thoughts Part I

      All things come back to Square One


              Miracles, do they happen? Is there a Supreme power? Is the concept of God, Man-made? Once in a while we hear the news that something unbelievable happened. Things which science fails to explain, but they happen. I am kind of person who believes in science more than anything else. I had not seen any miracle till I was seven. Long back when idols of Lord Ganesha started accepting milk all over the country. The scientist explained the theory as: the idols were made of clay which was absorbing the liquid, and it isn’t a miracle. I could have believed them blindly, but the idol back at my home were metallic. I myself fed  milk to the idol and he accepted it. That was the day when I was forced to believe that some things in this world can’t be explained by science and that some supernatural powers do exist, we believe in them or not. Most of the times we fail to understand ourselves, understanding God is far away from our reach.

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                    Destiny is another mystery for me. Some people say, we create our own destiny, some say it’s predestined I have considered all the possibilities and reached the conclusion that it’s predestined. Of course I can’t force others to follow my thought. But I surely can walk you through what I've observed .We all are born with equal capabilities. By "all" here I mean the larger part of the society. Speaking rationally , initially we all have equal possibilities to reach the top, considering the hard work and the devotion to our passion. Still, considerably a smaller section of the human kind had conquered the world . Of course they must have worked hard, but does it mean that they are the most deserving, hardworking and devoted people in the world? I leave this question for a while. You know that statistically the chances of finding THE ONE is "One in Seven Billion", you have more chances of winning a lottery. Isn't it destiny which plans and forces us to be at the exact place where we might find the one for us?

                   Now consider this, have you ever planned something properly and still everything went in vain? Ever worked hard for something and didn’t get through? Ever, half-heartedly tried to do something and still succeeded? Don’t you think these things were destined? Perhaps here you could defend the occurrence of the  incidents saying that, it happened because you were lucky or unlucky. That raises another question, what is luck? Don’t you feel lucky or unlucky every now and then? They say our destiny depends on the choices we make, but what if our choices are also destined? 
                  I thought about this  thing for a long time, considered many examples and then I finally made a way out. Yes, I am a man of destiny and everything is predestined, was the conclusion. Here is my theory:
                  Consider it for a while that everything is not predestined and you are supposed to write your own destiny. Now, since you work hard and very dedicated towards your work, you succeed, Congratulations!!!. You got promoted to another city or maybe to another country. You are all set to take the next step. Everything is going fine and life is moving the way you wanted. But suddenly you feel ill (here I am not creating obstacles, you know its natural and it happens) and, you had to step back. Now at the other end your competitor and probably less deserving got a chance. It was not a choice that you made, but it eventually happened to you. You are bound to be somewhere because your destiny wants you to be there.
                    The second assumption would be considering that everything is already written. You worked hard, you succeeded, and you got promoted. Feeling ill, had to step back. You stopped believing in destiny (because you thought it would lead you to something good but it didn't ). Now, since you have stopped believing in fate. You’ll probably rely on more hard work and devotion to get what you want. But, the fact still remains the same, i.e. your life is predestined. You will get what is written, even if you do not believe in it. People get what is written the easy way or the hard way. Even if you stop believing in destiny, this particular thought has also something to do with your destiny. Like in the above case, you got it all when fate hurt your beliefs, but ultimately got only what was written. This concept is like gravity, you believe it or not, it affects and runs your life. Not believing in it is like not believing in gravity. You can create your destiny only and only if it’s predestined that you will follow your dream path and create it.
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                   I came across this incredible book THE SECRET by RHONDA BYRNE , it says you can achieve whatever you what and indeed it is a truth. But to my surprise not everyone is able to understand the concept behind it. Not everyone relates to it and it doesn't work for everyone. It is a book that changes life but only for those people who have this change in their destiny. Again I was forced to believe that it's all already written.
                  Most people believe in hard work and not destiny but I convinced myself that hard work consoles you  when you know there is no way out. It gives us hope. It was difficult for me to accept that the good, the bad and the unexpected is all already written. I am more perplexed than ever, perhaps am wrong since I know one thing for sure , once in a while everything comes back to square one with the same question.
Is everything really predestined?