Random Thoughts Part II

                              A moment forever 


Date-20th July-11 
Time- 5.15 PM
Place- Shimla


              As I stare outside the window, I see fog covering every inch in the vicinity. A train of thoughts stirs my mind. I couldn't help but express my state in ink as I sit alone in my room practically a thousand miles away from my home. Its hard to recall when was the last time I Shared such a peaceful time with myself. Miles away from home, alone with a cup of coffee and above all , happy.

                    I shift my gaze to look for something inside the room. Aah!! a half empty bottle of Blender's Pride Whiskey. Last night it was full. Empty alcohol bottles are always full of stories and the one in my front is no exception. One of my room partners spent the last day in despair, perhaps he was missing someone. Though he preferred to share his mood with the whiskey and not me, I didn't mind as we are not two hands yet.But I hope he would eventually tell me.

               My deepest fears are surfacing again as loneliness favors them more often. I am all by myself and even though high fever doesn't favor me with the pen, I still hope to get things out of me while am at it. At times like this when I feel bond-less and free, I literary forget everything except the moment I'm in. It helps me know myself better and keep me updated about myself.

               I had never thought I'd be here alone at any point but it is happening and once again I feel elated with the surprise life gave me. Certainly, uncertainty is the best part of life  I recall how randomly I visited a site which gave me an opportunity to be in Shimla for 10 days with a learning experience.

                  I feel weird as I keep looking at the ceiling again and again but there are no fans in Shimla. The drop dead silence around me is somehow freaking me out as everything in this room but my soul is at unease.But this uneasiness has a touch of comfort as I feel freaked out, alone, strong, weird and HAPPY, all at the same time.This moment might not mean anything to someone who goes through it while I show it off, but it gives me a lifetime memory. A memory when I knew I'm exactly where I want to be.